hot

its hooootttt now.

like seriously hot.

and its STILL october. still have 1.5mths to go.

at least in kl….

its from house-car-mall/church/restaurant-church-house.

lol

here its

house-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-uni/wherever-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-house

but must remember.

cannot CANNOT

open windows at night. and must MUST make sure window’s close before going out.

ok. remember. ok.

loads and loads of creepy crawlers and flying saucers at night. must keep home clean and free of foreign living organisms.

but the temperature’s really weird. on sunday, it was seriously seriously cold. like 13′

then suddenly on tuesday or so, it’s 28. now its 31 -.-

so weird. some days it drop so low, and the next its really high -.-

da ren

wo yau da ren ah.

wo yau cubit joy’s mian.

wo yau bite someone

T.T

wo yau che tung xi

Breath in, Breath out

T.T

aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

okok.

calm down calm down.

T.T

sigh…..

feel loads better after talking to dees.

T.T

wwwwhhhhyyyy

whyy did you have to go uk???!!!!!!!!??????

because you’re gone, we’re stuck with stupid ieva who’s really………….really…..

i have no words to describe her -.-

was so freaking pissed just now.

whyY!!!!!!

why so mo liu de!!!!!!

you marked WRONG and you refuse to correct it saying too bad.

your answers are so bloody stupid.

you wanted more than 5 sentences just for a bloody 2 marks answer.

you wanted a whole page written just for a 3 (THREE!) marks answer.

what theeee………..

>0 !!!!!

and!

studies done on efficacy of glucosamine has not been well done!

most of the other lecturers says its not efficacious. in some people it may work. placebo effect maybe.

but you said nooooooo

there’s a whole cochrane library dedicated to it.

heelllloooo

just because the studies are done and say its efficacious does NOT mean its conclusive. the studies could’ve been badly done. that’s why ALL the other lecturers say its not that effective. you’re the odd one out.

and…

its so subjective! to you, the methods may have been ok but to others its NOT! it depends how you judge a paper!

ugh.

and sooooo many other points. seeing you there… i seriously feel like going down and slap you. -.-

aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. breath in breath out. remember what dees said.

breath in. out. in. out.

calm. cool.

The end of a year

I’m actually supposed to be listening to lecture audios but….. that’s why one shouldnt use computer to listen. you end up doing all sorts of nonsense. lol.

ANYWAYS (this is gonna be a boorrriiinnnggg post. not advisable to read)

exams are coming near… T.T like…………….. in 2 WEEKS!!!! T.T

and there’s so so ssooooooooo much to study up on. this semester was really really heavy. like ginormously grand truck heavy. like AEROPLANE heavy. like MOUNTAIN heavy.

lol.

yeah.

on the bright side though, next year’s gonna be a breeze.

….

or so i’ve been told. as breezy as a phamacy course can get anyway.

compared to the previous two years….

this year was the toughest and stressful one.

according to my seniors, 3rd yr is the worst as its the toughest. then fourth year, the percentage of people passing is really high. but for third year…. its really low….

i think 3rd yr’s the hardest followed closely by the 2nd. til now, i still dont understand concepts from the 2nd yr. but though 3rd yr’s the hardest…. i have to say, its the most interesting one and really cemented me to this course. i LOVE it! lol. ok. that may be stretching it too far but now, i seriously cant see myself doing any business course or any other thing than counselling patients.

i could definitely see myself doing business course in 2nd yr but now i’m really glad i stuck it out in the end.

2nd yr was the most emotionally and mentally challenging.

i think its cos i wasnt that into pharmacy and only went into it because i did not know what else to do. and i kept thinking of business course because it SEEMS so much easier than what i’m doing and…. i’d have more free time with business course. lol. but i’m glad i made it to the 3rd year. and not try to take a path that’s not mine.

but God really showed me that He’s always with me and this IS the path He wants me to be one. He’s done His part, now I seriously hope I’ll continue with mine. ><

but really….. miracles that i never knew could happen did……

i did really really badly for my second year. it was a bit frustrating at times because when i DID study, i did badly. when i didNOT… i did really badly. lol. but those times really made me rely heavily on God. there was nothing i could do anyway. i didnt do my part so let’s hope God did His. lol.

i failed.

ok. i said it.

T.T

my results had never been really good but to me it was good (maybe because i have low expectations? lol). and i rarely RARELY failed.(except physics though. to me…… its like how men perceive women. never to be understood) but to get the results i did in my second year…….

to be in more dramatic mode:

i was shattered into pieces. my heart broke and bled water. my emotions were cluttered.

lol.

but i DID understand why i failed though. its because… obvious reason ler…. -.-

i over-over-over-estimated myself.

cos previously, i could get away with just studying the night before.

but now… ><

too old adi… T.T

i mean God has always been my bestfriend during exams(sad to say… only then… >< i tend to take advantage of His love and grace ><)

and it always seem so easy to at least pass in exams….

but then… in second year….. shock of all shock……. i failed one of the subjects….

that was a huuuugggeee blow.

i blamed God alot.

which was kind of stupid of me.

i blamed God because He did not make my pass though i didnt know what was going on in the first place with the subject -.-

but thankfully though, i was actually not allowed to take the supplementary papers because…… my grades were THAT low. (and supp was from 45-49 anyway). for the supp paper…. i really studied. and now i can say that i at least understand a lil bit what’s going on. if i had passed then…… i wouldn’t have been able to learn anything from it.

then….. i failed the supp paper again. that was…. T.T

i got megaly dramatic. like REALLY dramatic. was going to hand in  papers to pull out of the course but then…………..

i’, glad i stuck it through. actually, by failing the supp paper (the practical part) i actually understand more about formulations now than if i had passed then. but again, by His grace…… they allowed me to take ANOTHER supp to that supp which… I PASSED!!!!

then second sem………………………………….

i failed again.

at the same subject.

by now I was seriously scared. like maybe its a subject i could never ever understand. like physics. i always ALWAYS failed at physics. never passed no matter how much i studies for it… T.T

but then, thank God the reason i failed was…. because of bloody practical part. -.-

but then again… that was my own stupidity and stubborness. God did prompt me do some stuff and i refused to listen. then he even had people come and TELL me but… again. stubborn stubborn. so… ><

but thank God i passed in the supp practical.

but another miracle………

that i actually passed last sem.

seriously.

i heard loads of people failed. esp my super super smart friends. so….. after failing twice… i wasnt that… panicked about it. lol. i expected it already.

 but with His grace… i managed to pass!!!!

but i’m quite surprised cos i did not studied as hard as i could’ve. ><

and my test results were quite bad so i never expected to pass my exams.

but then…. i guess i was grading God’s ability to pass me by the world’s standard. like i tried to limit His ability. saying He can’t pass me because… well.. its not..LOGICAL. its NOT what i deserve.

i’m just really seriously glad that He doesnt give us what we deserve but what we dont.

(my parents were really surprised that i passed too. so.. lol…. I LOVE GOD!!!!!)

Foreverness

Don’t remember if i’d ever posted this before and too lazy to look through my archive

Death

are you afraid of it?

I am.

darn bloody well afraid of it.

its not so much the afterlife since i know exactly where i’m going but……

its the process of it.

the whole dying part that i’m seriously scared of. ><

But I used to wonder….

why can’t we live forever?

why do people have to die?

why can’t we just be together gether for eternity on earth?

Why did God allow death?

Then I remembered…

God doesn’t want to be separated from us forever.

He wants to spend time with us. Forever kind of time.

if we were forever here on earth, there’s no way we can ever be near or close to God as close as we’d be in heaven.

yeah, we can still be close to Him on earth, but in heaven…….

Before adam and eve sinned, God could always come down to talk and laugh with them.

But then, they sinned and God can’t be close to them as He’d like to be cos no matter what the sin is, they still have like…. sin on them. like hmm… not to say evil but to not say it is not evil is also not true. but because He’s so pure, if He comes close to us, we’d like….. straightaway die…. too pure.

He must’ve really missed us cos He planned a way where  He can be with us and we with Him.

which we all know is by the death of His Son, Jesus.

So i guess death had to occur cos there’s no way we can be as close as we can be in heaven when we’re on earth.

like, if we were to live forever on earth we’d be forever separated from Him.

but i’m still bloody scared of the whole dying process.

like when i get old, i hope i die a painless death. like in my sleep or something.

but now i’m sometimes scared i’ll die in my sleep. nooooo!!!
i’m too young to die yet!!!! give me like 90 yrs more then….

Sunny Sunny sssuuunnnyyyyyy

Sunny sunny SUUNNNYYY!!!!!!!!

well, actually, the next few days are going to be cloudy and rainy and sleepy but…..

it’s gonna be SUNNYYY!!!!!

why oh why?

tsk tsk.

mind your own business.

:p

yay!

my new cranium board game finally arrived!!!
can’t wait to play it!!!

i’m not bored with the other games we’re playing now but this will be a nice addition since the other games got taken away. T.T

what oh what is it?

mind your own business

:p

(don’t whack me >< )

aidoi….

fei tut tut adi…

T.T

why…….

why must people have metabolism….

why cant food just go in and out straight. without any absorption or breakdown and our body can still funtion perfectly well….

T.T

wwwwwhhhhyyyyy???????

sigh.

oh, which reminds me of what I heard from this superly funny visiting pastor.

On the second day, after He separated the land and sea, God said it was Good.

On the third day, He said it was good.

On the fourth day, it was good.

On the fifth day, it was good.

on the sixth day, it was VERY good.

what the preacher said was that, everyday was good. but one day was exceptionally good. you may have bad days but when the sun sets and rises again, its a whole new day and that day will be GOOD.

hmm…. actually, it makes really good sense when he was talking about it. cos i THINK (not so sure) what he said was that each day was good, then suddenly one of the days, God said nothing. then the next day He said it was VERY good. but i cant seem to find the bible passage since all the different versions i’ve seen seem to say that everyday was good except for one day where it was very good.

but to go along with his thinking,

everyday was good, one day nothing and the next day very good,

its like your life may not be going well at the moment but tomorrow it will be very good.

or something like that.

lol. i suck at explaining things

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JUST wondering….

I’m JUST WONDERING OKAY!!!!

i may be really sleepy and have fried brains but i’m JUST WONDERING!!!

okays. here’s what i was wondering about. :p

when people get heart attack or chest pain, they normally take a tablet/spray of nitroglycerin (used in explosives) under their tongue. why? fast systemic absorption. goes into your blood faster than it having to go through your stomach and liver first.

SO……….

i was wondering,

like if people want to kill themselves,

instead of taking pills which can cause them to have heavy duty stomach pains,

why not just take some detergents or toilet cleaner and leave it hanging in their mouth for a while?

faster death right? cos faster systemic absorption?

no?

yes?

please dont test out my theory…. ><

but one thing good about this step is that you probably wont be able to stand having the liquids  in your mouth long enough for it to cause an effect. so you’ll probably spit it out. suicide fail.

and it’ll probably burn your mouth really really badly.

this is JUST A THEORY AND MINDLESS WONDERING!!!!!!!

but you know,

like in some shows,

where the protagonist is forced to take a poison, and he tricks the evil antagonist by not swallowing the poison and left it in his mouth til no one’s looking, then he spits the poison out?

but………..

if you leave it in your mouth………

wont it kill you faster than if you just swallow it?

JUST WONDERING!!!!!

Let me catch some zzzz’s

I’m so tired…… in the last 48 hrs i’ve only slept…..

4-5 hours…. T.T

i wanna sllleeeeepppppp T.T

Double take and triple laughs

LOVE this show!

lol. love hamish’s part on thank god you’re here too.

but anyway,

here’s some clips from double take.

The funniest!!!!

Thank God you’re here is where you have to enter a door to a scene and have to improvise according to the scene. love this show, though some comedians are not so good on-the-spot improvisioner (lol. wrong word? ><). but hamish is one of the best there is. so hunky dory too.

sigh. too bad the show finished last season though.

but this clip is really funny. i keep watching it every now and then. lol.

Single Ladies

lol. watch this!

got it from a blog on wp homepage.

and this:

WARNING!!!!!!!

ADULTS ONLY!!!!