hello

hello yellow take some jell-o!

don’t make milo

it’s too hot-oh

we’ll get some ice cold

for your body body o

so like a possum

awesome possum i’m so highly awesome!

 

not as awesome as God but i’m pretty awesome

Keep it cheery

Simple acts of kindness, a kind word and yummy yummy food really makes the angriness away.

like………

walking 30mins in 30′ just to eat really good food. food that i wished i discovered like a few months ago instead of just recently because……… one get so hooked on it and feel like eating it everday but…. its too hot to even bother -.-

oh having missed the bus by a 100m and the bus driver was kind enough to stop at where you are just to pick you up

having a good good chat.

and….

knowing that your dad and God has your back.

hot

its hooootttt now.

like seriously hot.

and its STILL october. still have 1.5mths to go.

at least in kl….

its from house-car-mall/church/restaurant-church-house.

lol

here its

house-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-uni/wherever-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-walk-house

but must remember.

cannot CANNOT

open windows at night. and must MUST make sure window’s close before going out.

ok. remember. ok.

loads and loads of creepy crawlers and flying saucers at night. must keep home clean and free of foreign living organisms.

but the temperature’s really weird. on sunday, it was seriously seriously cold. like 13′

then suddenly on tuesday or so, it’s 28. now its 31 -.-

so weird. some days it drop so low, and the next its really high -.-

da ren

wo yau da ren ah.

wo yau cubit joy’s mian.

wo yau bite someone

T.T

wo yau che tung xi

Breath in, Breath out

T.T

aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

okok.

calm down calm down.

T.T

sigh…..

feel loads better after talking to dees.

T.T

wwwwhhhhyyyy

whyy did you have to go uk???!!!!!!!!??????

because you’re gone, we’re stuck with stupid ieva who’s really………….really…..

i have no words to describe her -.-

was so freaking pissed just now.

whyY!!!!!!

why so mo liu de!!!!!!

you marked WRONG and you refuse to correct it saying too bad.

your answers are so bloody stupid.

you wanted more than 5 sentences just for a bloody 2 marks answer.

you wanted a whole page written just for a 3 (THREE!) marks answer.

what theeee………..

>0 !!!!!

and!

studies done on efficacy of glucosamine has not been well done!

most of the other lecturers says its not efficacious. in some people it may work. placebo effect maybe.

but you said nooooooo

there’s a whole cochrane library dedicated to it.

heelllloooo

just because the studies are done and say its efficacious does NOT mean its conclusive. the studies could’ve been badly done. that’s why ALL the other lecturers say its not that effective. you’re the odd one out.

and…

its so subjective! to you, the methods may have been ok but to others its NOT! it depends how you judge a paper!

ugh.

and sooooo many other points. seeing you there… i seriously feel like going down and slap you. -.-

aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. breath in breath out. remember what dees said.

breath in. out. in. out.

calm. cool.

The end of a year

I’m actually supposed to be listening to lecture audios but….. that’s why one shouldnt use computer to listen. you end up doing all sorts of nonsense. lol.

ANYWAYS (this is gonna be a boorrriiinnnggg post. not advisable to read)

exams are coming near… T.T like…………….. in 2 WEEKS!!!! T.T

and there’s so so ssooooooooo much to study up on. this semester was really really heavy. like ginormously grand truck heavy. like AEROPLANE heavy. like MOUNTAIN heavy.

lol.

yeah.

on the bright side though, next year’s gonna be a breeze.

….

or so i’ve been told. as breezy as a phamacy course can get anyway.

compared to the previous two years….

this year was the toughest and stressful one.

according to my seniors, 3rd yr is the worst as its the toughest. then fourth year, the percentage of people passing is really high. but for third year…. its really low….

i think 3rd yr’s the hardest followed closely by the 2nd. til now, i still dont understand concepts from the 2nd yr. but though 3rd yr’s the hardest…. i have to say, its the most interesting one and really cemented me to this course. i LOVE it! lol. ok. that may be stretching it too far but now, i seriously cant see myself doing any business course or any other thing than counselling patients.

i could definitely see myself doing business course in 2nd yr but now i’m really glad i stuck it out in the end.

2nd yr was the most emotionally and mentally challenging.

i think its cos i wasnt that into pharmacy and only went into it because i did not know what else to do. and i kept thinking of business course because it SEEMS so much easier than what i’m doing and…. i’d have more free time with business course. lol. but i’m glad i made it to the 3rd year. and not try to take a path that’s not mine.

but God really showed me that He’s always with me and this IS the path He wants me to be one. He’s done His part, now I seriously hope I’ll continue with mine. ><

but really….. miracles that i never knew could happen did……

i did really really badly for my second year. it was a bit frustrating at times because when i DID study, i did badly. when i didNOT… i did really badly. lol. but those times really made me rely heavily on God. there was nothing i could do anyway. i didnt do my part so let’s hope God did His. lol.

i failed.

ok. i said it.

T.T

my results had never been really good but to me it was good (maybe because i have low expectations? lol). and i rarely RARELY failed.(except physics though. to me…… its like how men perceive women. never to be understood) but to get the results i did in my second year…….

to be in more dramatic mode:

i was shattered into pieces. my heart broke and bled water. my emotions were cluttered.

lol.

but i DID understand why i failed though. its because… obvious reason ler…. -.-

i over-over-over-estimated myself.

cos previously, i could get away with just studying the night before.

but now… ><

too old adi… T.T

i mean God has always been my bestfriend during exams(sad to say… only then… >< i tend to take advantage of His love and grace ><)

and it always seem so easy to at least pass in exams….

but then… in second year….. shock of all shock……. i failed one of the subjects….

that was a huuuugggeee blow.

i blamed God alot.

which was kind of stupid of me.

i blamed God because He did not make my pass though i didnt know what was going on in the first place with the subject -.-

but thankfully though, i was actually not allowed to take the supplementary papers because…… my grades were THAT low. (and supp was from 45-49 anyway). for the supp paper…. i really studied. and now i can say that i at least understand a lil bit what’s going on. if i had passed then…… i wouldn’t have been able to learn anything from it.

then….. i failed the supp paper again. that was…. T.T

i got megaly dramatic. like REALLY dramatic. was going to hand in  papers to pull out of the course but then…………..

i’, glad i stuck it through. actually, by failing the supp paper (the practical part) i actually understand more about formulations now than if i had passed then. but again, by His grace…… they allowed me to take ANOTHER supp to that supp which… I PASSED!!!!

then second sem………………………………….

i failed again.

at the same subject.

by now I was seriously scared. like maybe its a subject i could never ever understand. like physics. i always ALWAYS failed at physics. never passed no matter how much i studies for it… T.T

but then, thank God the reason i failed was…. because of bloody practical part. -.-

but then again… that was my own stupidity and stubborness. God did prompt me do some stuff and i refused to listen. then he even had people come and TELL me but… again. stubborn stubborn. so… ><

but thank God i passed in the supp practical.

but another miracle………

that i actually passed last sem.

seriously.

i heard loads of people failed. esp my super super smart friends. so….. after failing twice… i wasnt that… panicked about it. lol. i expected it already.

 but with His grace… i managed to pass!!!!

but i’m quite surprised cos i did not studied as hard as i could’ve. ><

and my test results were quite bad so i never expected to pass my exams.

but then…. i guess i was grading God’s ability to pass me by the world’s standard. like i tried to limit His ability. saying He can’t pass me because… well.. its not..LOGICAL. its NOT what i deserve.

i’m just really seriously glad that He doesnt give us what we deserve but what we dont.

(my parents were really surprised that i passed too. so.. lol…. I LOVE GOD!!!!!)